Week 16...wow has time flown by!

Well I am unsure how long this is going to be or even how often I will be blogging as of this past weekend. You see my computer is acting up and so I have to blog at the hotels...which feels weird to me. I keep looking over my shoulder at other people and they keep yawning. Am I ever going to get off they wonder? Really what is it that she is doing that could be more important than my million dollar deal e-mail I need to send out. To you MR. Suit, get a lap top. :) Okay that's mean but I really should keep it short.

Last week was good, nothing new to report. I am feeling like if I don't start setting some solid goals here I am going to be backsliding again. SO I need to set goals this week. I'll try and post them as soon as I can. The weekends are still really hard and I am so unsure about what to do to change that, my working out and eating well go right out the door on the weekends. So if there is progress in the week you just don't know it by the weekend. And so the circle goes. GURH. Help, ideas are VERY welcomed.

Okay I think my time limit is up I'll try and be back soon. Thanks guys for the sounding board that you all are. :)

Week 15...

Well I had a very late night last night and I was to busy in the morning trying to get ready for my trip, mowing the yard etc... and I got in WAY to late last night to post. Better late than never right? And I do have good news! I am proud to say that I did not gain this week!! And in the same regards I did not lose any weight but I am very HAPPY. I am very content with this outcome. I did not have the very best weekend so not gaining is a very big deal for me. :) Hip-hip-hooray for me.

I also went to Costco and I found this awesome deal with a four pack of workout DVDs, Yoga and Pilates. I haven't tried them yet so I will let you know if they are worth it or not, but at $11.99 for four you can't go wrong. And the workout length is more what I was looking for so I am happy.

I've got to get ready for work and eat some lunch so I cannot blog much but I will try and do something tonight when I get back if I cannot sleep or tomorrow. :)

And yes I worked out today! Yea Me!!

Week 14 and counting...

I am so happy about how I did last week. So happy in fact that I am going to give myself my first button!! A non-scale victory of my very own. So here is the proud button and let me explain why I think I deserve it. (well bloggerwon't let me add a picture, as soon as I can I will add the button!)

I might not of worked out every day, but I did what I could this week. And I did not kick myself for the bad things that I eat, I just watched what I had for other meals and snacks. I was very aware of doing little things that would add up, walking when I could, taking the stairs, drinking water instead of soda and such. And I was happy about doing those things, I wanted to do more. My biggest down fall is the weekends, I just need to come up with a game plan for them and then follow through with it. I'm off to a better start I just need to maybe kick it up a bit this next week to hopefully see a lose in my weight, or inches lost. I forgot to mention that last week I took my measurement and I am also going to keep track of that for those times when I don't lose pounds but gain muscle!

This week I am also going to order some workout DVDs from Collage Video. If you have never been to this web site and you like to workout to videos this is an amazing web site. http://www.collagevideo.com/main.aspx
It has the times broken down for each video so you can see how much of the time is actual workout time and of what kind of working out. Plus their staff has done all the videos themselves , so they know what each is like. And as if that was not enough they also let you try it out and return it if it's not for you. So I have done lots of research on the type of workout I want to do, something that has some cardio in it, (for those weekends when I am at home!) and I'd like it to have some strength type stuff as well. I found out that Jillian from Biggest Loser has a new DVD out with LOTS of good tings to say about it. Unlike her first DVD set which did not get good reviews, but I love her on Biggest Loser and I like that style of training. I need someone to yell at me and make me push harder. So I believe that I am going to get her new DVD set and see what happens. It' s two workouts roughly about 30 minutes each and it also has different levels of advancement. I'm really excited, I get paid on the 10th so that is my little gift to myself. I was also thinking about getting a yoga DVD but I am unsure of whether to get one that is to relax with or one to make me stronger and really work out my body. Any ideas out there? Anyways I will let you all know how the DVD is as soon as I get it. I am super looking forward to it.

As far as my goals for this week, I'm going to think about them today while I work and post them tonight or tomorrow. Have a GREAT week everyone!

Oh and I guess I should share some news... I lost 2 pounds this week. I know I should be happy and I am, I guess. But you see I have gained 6.5 pounds since I weighed in the first time for this challenge. I wasn't going to say anything but I felt I needed to be honest, so there it is. I'm really not counting it though...It's just embarrassing to have a gain so big. At least I lost right?

C25K is back!

Well I am really proud of myself this week so far. I've worked out twice and I've had all my water so far AND the push/sit ups. :) I had forgotten how amazing that it feels after really working out hard, sweating and getting my heart rate up. It feels GREAT!!

I've started back on the C25K week 5. I've been doing week 4 for about ummm forever. So I thought I should try out the next week. Let me just tell you what the next weeks running plan is; day one, is three five minute runs: day two, is two eight minute runs: and day three is a 20 minute run. Whoa not ready for a 20 minute run yet. I mean am I? SO I think I am going to take this slower, maybe two runs of day one, day two and so on till I get to day three. Would you like to hear something scary? I think I am beginning to enjoy working out, running in particular. Weird I know, I'm still getting used to the idea myself. If only it would get to be the way where it was just a part of my life, like eating breakfast, going for a run.

I'm not sure how this weekend will be, bad I am sure a friend is having a b-day party and so I am sure I won't get my workout in. I still feel silly making it a big deal that I've got to go and work out to our little group of friends. At least till I am fit or more comfortable telling everyone what I am doing. Is anyone else out there not telling everyone what they are doing? I'm not sure why I am embarrassed, I'm sure they would all be supporting, maybe that's why I am nervous. They would see what I've tried to tell myself no one sees, my chubby thighs and belly. Am I really that lacking in self esteem? Chalk that up to yet another reason I am doing this. A big dose of self esteem, I need to love myself more. Or at least like and appreciate my body.

So here's to the weekend. I will really try and watch what I eat and drink (yeah right on that one) and walk or whatever as much as I can. I should of gotten up earlier this morning and done it then. Oh well. When it's raining I love being in the bed, snuggled up deep in my sheets. :) Perfect.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Week 13....

Okay I'm back in the game. I had the break and it was really just what I needed.

I was just really feeling a lot of pressure to lose weight, to post good things every week, to get those buttons and I never really had my heart into it. Whether or not my mind was into it is yet to be decided. I really felt embarrassed that I am right back where I started two years ago. And that I even got that way to begin with! I am embarrassed that it's only 40 pounds! And I cannot get rid of it, I'm embarrassed that I am worried that I will not be able to lose weight. Silly isn't it? But I am worried that maybe I will never get to a happy weight. I am really scared of failing. And it's not just about weight that I have come to realize that I am sacred to fail at anything. But with losing weight it is souly on my own shoulders. No one else has anything to say about what I put into my own mouth or if I workout or not.It's completely up to me. It's really been holding me back in my life, a silly fear of failure. I just need to be more knowledgeable of that fact and ask for help. And not to sweat the small stuff!!

SO failure is NOT an option for me. I do know that there will be days when I don't do good at all and I just want to quit. The thing is to acknowledge that I had a bad day and go on. Which is why I named my blog as such "one day at a time" I just seemed to of forgotten. Oh and I am going to try my hardest to post everyday, it really does help to have you all. :) Thanks...

I am also going to make the next 14 weeks really count. I'm not going to live forever and I need to make what I do have the best possbile life ever. I don't want to have said well she eat good things...I want more out of life.

my own spring break

Well I've decided to take the last week and this week off. Easter and Spring Break just did a number on me and I need some time to regroup. Get my head into the game again. I just am feeling so depressed about weight loss right now. Maybe it's spring around the corner, and with that swimsuit season? Winter blues?
I'll be reading your blogs though, that is my strength so maybe I'll be back sooner. I should have time this weekend to think. :)
Thanks for understanding and the support!

Cues from an Ostridge

Sorry that I have been M.I.A. lately. I have been busy avoiding blogging to be honest. And I know this week will be just as bad so I am ducking my head into the sand and I'll be back next week. Tomorrow I'll update though. I promise.