Edy's Dibs

Does the title say it all or what? So this is my first down fall. I ate the whole tub! It was yummy, and at the same time I really do feel sick right now. It is the most sugar that I have had in my tummy in three weeks! And I am not going over my points (there is that word again) so I do know that it is not that bad. It's just a bad choice.
I don't know what came over me. I have been so very good so far, and honestly I wasn't hungry, heck it wasn't even my TOM. Okay so maybe that wasn't true...I do know why. There is this Brew Pub in the same parking lot as my hotel and my husband (and I) LOVE fresh Mico-brewery beers. So I thought I would be the sweet wife and buy him a gift, which of course I will share...only to my points though! Well the minor thing was all I brought with me were my workout clothes. Not phasing me a bit I go over and as I am about to walk in the dreaded...HOMECOMING. Tons of rail-thin-make-up-to-the-t-puffy dresses-clad-teenage-girls. All of the sudden I felt like I was back in high school. (yes I was the geeky-but-funny-pretty-yet-not-really-girl-next-door-sort-of) Whatever, I tossed my head and ran in the door..."CAN I HELP YOU?" ...the eyes looked me up and down!! Needless to say I ran to food, ice cream, is my comfort food. Since freshly baked cookies where out of the question. Why did I fall into the high school fears? I thought I had grown up...I have not felt like that since high school. A weak moment and another reminder of why I am doing this. For me. To feel proud of my legs for they won't be big-they will be strong, strong enough to get me across the finish line at a marathon. To be proud of my body. To be confident not only in my body but what I can do.
A moment of weakness helped me to remember just what I am doing all this for, ME.

ummmm

Ugh.
Not much to really write about...can u tell I've been gone a few days?
I'm still kinda worried about this weeks weigh-in, since when am I not worried? So I've been trying to workout these last couple of days to make up for my sore heals. I did a weight lifting workout this evening and I was disappointed to find out how little points I actually got from it, however my legs and arms where jelly afterward so I guess it was successful. My thighs are still hurting from a tough session of yoga for the butt & thighs. Any one that thinks yoga is for whips...you're not doing it right! Trust me, it kills!
As to my heals I think they are ready to start the running program again. The Half-Marathon is just around the corner. And I will NOT walk, I will RUN.

Fighting the blues!

Yeah I lost 5 pounds.

Now I am kinda worried that I won't be able to keep losing weight. I'm trying to tell that part of my head to shut up! I lost weight, I already showed myself that it is possible and that I did it. I can still feel fat on my body, I can still see it for that matter!! So it is there to lose. It's amazing how much of a battle this is with your head. People have told me and I've read that this is a hard battle. Not only to eat right and excerise but the games it plays with your head. Again I will go back to my sister, who is on week 4 and she lost 3 1/2 pounds on the third week. A total of 13 plus pounds in three weeks! So I do know I will lose weight...I just need to do what I did this last week. It's when I lost the most weight. When feeling blue make a list!

• Eat all workout points---leave 10 extra points this week
• Workout at least more than 19 points (points value for last week)
• Get sleep!! 7 Hours...try...
• Pick out reward for making it to my 10% goal by the end of October

It's amazing how many times I say "points" in a day. With this new "life style change" it's been all I say. Nope that's too many points, or my favorite...that's only two points! I've got to find a new way of saying points. :) I think I might of talked myself out of this slump...:)

Okay let me tell you something sad, I got the biggest badest blisters ever on my body (sorry if you have a weak tummy this is as bad as it will get I promise!) on my heals the other day. From my wonderful golf day. Stupid golf shoes. The worst part is that I can't even wear my new nike's! Which means nothing on my heals at all...when I'm talking huge, I really do mean just that. That also means the whole running plan is out for a while. Until my heals heel or until I can cover them enough to where it doesn't hurt. Bummer...I've only been running that once but I did fall madly in love with it. Or at least I was in the beginning stages of love. :) You know the part where you still don't know the bad stuff? It's all roses...

I also bought a jump rope, this really cool one that has a timer and a counter on the handles. It yet to has been unused waiting for the heels to feel better. It's been a long time since I jumped rope, I'll feel like a kid again. Someone told me it's good for you though. Lot's of uhh yea points.

Well I do feel better now. I'm gonna kick this weeks butt!! I will not give up that easily! You don't know who you are messing with!

170!!!!!!!!

YIPPEEEE!!!! I am SO happy with this loss. I even got my first Milestone star from losing 5 pounds. And I am only 13 pounds away from the 10% goal. I don't know how it happened this week but it did. And I am so very happy!!! It's totally put a bounce in my step to start the next week. I'm a loser!! I've never been more proud of that than now.

This is what they told me after I put in my weight. Perfect thought for the week.

Here's a quote by Eleanor Roosevelt to keep you inspired: `The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.`

Tomorrow...

I'm really trying hard not to think about tomorrow. Can you tell? It's Tuesday. The weigh in day. I'm just really curious about what is going to happen. What do I expect? Again I am hoping for a loss of 4.5 pounds. I want to get out of the 170's so very badly. But I will be happy with any loss. Even .5 pounds. So whatever it is, it is a loss. And I know that this is a long on going progress. And I am in this for the long run, so what does it really matter? Who am I kidding...it does matter to me. Cross your fingers for hoping.

It was such a beautiful day that I decided to try golf. For the first time ever. My husband is a HUGE golf fan and I love the sport myself. I've watched him play to many times to count and I've been to a few professional tours. Anyways I never tried. I walked 9 holes and carried my bag. W/W had it as an exercise option and so I thought what the heck. Well I am sore as heck, I'm scared what I will feel like tomorrow. But I got a par on one hole. My first game and I got a par. I'm hooked, it's all it took was one good hole. :) Watch out Anna, here I come!

Nike Free's

Well my new shoes came in, I love them so much I just almost slept in them last night. My Husband, although he did say he liked them wasn't going for that. But if anyone out there can answer me this, I bought Nike Free's and the top part is a little tight on my foot. Is this normal? I did the most unthinkable thing, I bought the pair without ever even trying on a pair before. I was in love with them that much. As soon as I find my cord to down-load my pictures to my laptop I'll post them, so you all can see just how cute they are.

And even though I haven't been around for a couple days, W/W has been going really good. I was debating on putting my weight loss down for last week even though I didn't really weigh in on Tuesday like I am supposed too, and I figured why not!? What could it hurt right? Well I lost 2 points in just losing that half pound so my counts this week are sort of crazy. I still have weekly points left over I just really need to be watching what I eat now. You know spreading them out throughout the day, making meals the key. And I must admit I did go a little bit over board on Friday with the booze. But I am trying to do whatever I can to earn more points cause I would rather not use up ALL my weekly points.

Oh a side note I do think I am losing some weight. You see I have this ring that I wear on my left hand (yes the bigger hand) ring finger. Well I can put it on the thumb now. It's still not 100% cozy but it goes on and more importantly comes off! SO there is one small sign that things are happening. And again I feel my mind set changing every day. It's easier to give in to something I really would like and then be really good afterward. Learning when to say yes and when to say no.

I now also have two really important things coming up, I have the half-marathon in March (the 25th...only 181 days to train!) and then one of my husbands dearest friends is getting married. And this is going to be one of those HUGE big deal weddings. The kind where you actually care what you look like in the photos. And really it's an excuse to get a really awesome party dress and heels and look hot. The wedding is going to be in April I believe...so that gives me what 6-7 months to really rock this body? LET'S do THIS!!

Yeppieeee!

Edorphins love me and I love them.
Can you tell that I started the "Couch-to-5k" running program? I love it. The music is a little uhh not my taste but it's different and it does have that beat. You know the one the play in ALL the gyms?
But he was really helpful, it was like having my own personal trainer. Someone else to watch the clock and tell me when to slow down and speed up. When to run, when to speed walk. This works baby! Lovin' it! I am going to run that 5k and then the marathon! Don't get me wrong it was kinda hard, mental note to self---Never, ever, workout on an empty tummy. I was about to crash half way through the workout. Funny I should know better, I just flew with a girl that broke her wrist for the very same reason. You think I would learn... :) We'll see how sore I am in the morning.

No weight to Post....

I know, I know it's Tuesday and I am supposed to weigh in. But honestly I just couldn't do it. I couldn't face the scale again. So I am really just going to work really hard this next week and take into account that I didn't weigh in this week.

But guess what happened to me today? I started another 3 day trip around the country again today and the two other girls and I got talking when I pulled out my Weight Watchers Yogurt (1 point VERY good). One of the girls freaked out. She has been on weight watchers for 5 years and she lost 80 pounds the first year! WOW... needless to say she was all about the diet. She doesn't call it a diet she calls it a "LIFE CHANGE"...which is how I am looking at this. Once I do lose the weight I really would just like to be eating calories-in calories-out...but that time has not come yet. Back to the real world. It was like picking at my own personal weight watchers trainer. She also had tons of advice and food ideas for cooking on the plane. She also said that I might not be eating enough. That I really need to try and eat all my points. If you don't your metabolism will slow down. Causing no weight loss. So chalk that up as yet maybe one more reason for the 1/2 pound loss. Yes I am still saddened by that.

As for starting the running program I will start tomorrow. It says only to do it 3 days a week and if I start tomorrow I might be able to use my new running shoes twice this weekend at the lake. I've been wanting some Nike Free's for a while, really light weight, gets your feet stronger, how can you lose? They are supposed to get to the house on Friday, but I am hoping Fedx is wanting to impress me and get my shoes to me on Thursday. If not I won't be able to try them out till Monday! :( We're going out of town this weekend, for one last go around on the lake before it gets to cold. Wakeboarding, swimming, all good water sports are in the plans. We should have a great time.

I'm always up for new ideas on workouts-food-ect... I'm still new and could use all the help I get!

Feeling Blue

Well as the title says I am or rather was feeling pretty blue.

Yesterday I got home from my trip and was feeling really good. I had made it 5 whole days on Weight Watchers, without cheating or going over the points. Until I was unpacking I walked by the bathroom...and the scale. I tried hard to resist the power of the scale. BUT it was to much and I was telling myself that it would be a good booster for me to see all that weight that I had lost. I stepped on the scale feeling oh so much pride at myself when it read 174.5. Yes, it was right. I even got on again thinking something must be wrong. I've only lost 1/2 a pound. So what did I do? Indugled on Chinese, what else would you do? I was pretty much in a royal bad mood after that...not only did I only lose 1/2lb I couldn't even control my own eating. So I am pretty sure I went over my daily points AND eat up the rest of my weekly points. Still feeling pretty blue. Well my Husband who bless his heart as been with me all the way every time I say I am going to be starting a diet. And he has seen me quit after each time it doesn't happen the way I thought it should of been. Well He is really pushing me this time to stick with it, and he pretty much laid it out on the line for me. Telling me I wasn't going to lose the weight that my sister did...really encouraging me to stick with it. And so I kept on going...
I realized that I am going to have to workout alot more than I thought to really get the weight off. (there's still a little voice in the back of my head telling myself that my umm "TOM" is this week, I still have two days...ect...) But I still need to workout. And there's still that marathon in the spring. So I did some google work and had this awesome site with a great idea. It's called "COUCH TO 5K" (coolrunning.com) and it's all about getting you off the couch and getting you to run. Remember how I said I liked to have things planned out for me? Well this was great, it tells you how to start running,how long to run, when to speed up ect... The only thing was I needed to get a watch to keep track of all this. UGH. Well as luck would have it as I was searching Itunes-podcasts there as a podcast for this very program. This man decided to as try the "couch to 5k" program and made up a podcast to go along with it while you ran. He tells you what to do along with upbeat music to keep you going!!! Is this amazing or what?! There is no reason now why I can't workout and stick with it. Marathon here I come!!
Even though I am still bummed out about the weight I am still going to weight-in on Tuesday, like I should. And I am just going to stick with it. Keep going and be happy for any weight loss...that's what I get for dreaming up just how easy this was going to be. I am humbled. But not broken. And that's all that matters.

Work it out

I did it. I actually worked out. For 40 whole minutes! Gee that doesn't sound very good but it's a good start. And now I feel like I can go run a whole marathon! Okay maybe not that good. But pretty damn good.

I tried to focus on doing yoga breathing while working out and strangely that hepled. I never have gotten to use my yoga breathing for anything before, but it helped to get through the hard part of the workout.

And the other life saver was my Ipod. I made a mix for the "one day" that I would start working out, yet once again. And it really helped. BUT I only had enough for 40 minutes worth. No that's not the reason that I stopped at 40 minutes, that's just the random time I picked out. Which by the way I am going to be working on. If I want to do the half-marathon I need to get working.

The crazy endorphns... man I really forgot how great it feels to workout. And I am not hungry any more. Here's a secret I knew that if I stayed in my room and just watched TV I would eat. And I couldn't do that! It's only been day 4! I can't give up yet! SO off I went. And now I am really glad I did. The day seems complete.

Still going strong!

I really am very proud of myself. Yes it's only been three days, but it has been THREE whole days.

yea it's not the best thing in the world to keep track of everything I eat, but unfortunately

I was not blessed with the genes that you can eat whatever and not gain a pound. I have to work to get the body I want. And for all those times that I dragged my feet in the sand about starting it's not as hard as I thought it would be to give things up. Don't get me wrong it is hard...but I thought it would be like never getting to eat anything but salad and tuna the rest of my life.

And I am thinking differently about it this time as well. When I want to eat those chips I see myself as I am...maybe I don't need those chips. And after all carrots are free points, and frankly I love um.

Although I can tell already that I am going to get sick of my food choices. So if anyone has any ideas about things that I can pre-make and then freeze that will last 4 days in a cooler, let me know. Or any good things that don't need to be kept cold!!!

And shame, shame on me I didn't work out this week. I am SO not going to make my goal weight loss keeping this pace. Not that this is an excuse BUT...I really was tired head to toe after working today. Six flights!!! Can they even do that to us? I am going to do some yoga though...but I swear I will do cardio tomorrow. If only there was a way to force me to exercise like there is for eating. Or at least a guide or something to keep me going every day. Any ideas??

4 more days till the first weigh-in!!

Drink more Water. Work out.

EASY????

Why did today seem easy? I'm only at 12 points so far. And I've still got tons more to go.

I caught myself grabbing snacks on the plane out of habit today, I guess I ate even more junk than I thought. That really opened my eyes to how I really got this big.

I had my husband take some before pictures of me in this two piece swimsuit that I've had for a while. It's the swimsuit that I wore when I thought I had an OKAY body. I knew that I had gained weight but I really had no idea how bad it looked till I saw myself in those pictures. Ehh I never had that back roll before did I? All the more reason to keep at this diet...excuse me...this new WAY OF LIFE so I can say goodbye to the back roll (among other things). I was planning on posting the pictures as another way to keep myself accountable but after looking at the pictures I just couldn't do that to you all. I want so badly to feel proud of my body. But I am a little worried. Is it really possible to loss weight eating like this? I guess I will really decide that on Tuesday. That's my next weigh-in. I know it works my sister lost 7.6 pounds remember?

My goal weight to lose the first week is 5 pounds. I think that's a good goal. After all I believe I'll be in that umm time and we all know what weird transformations happen to the body durning that. The only part is I won't be able to really work out as much as I would like this week, I've got short layovers and long days. Okay so yeah that sounds like a bunch of crap. I will tomorrow, I promise.

In the beginning...At 175lbs...

Well I did it. I have signed up for Weight Watchers for better or for worse...How can I even say for worse? This is about my life, enjoying my life, being able to be 100% a part of my life.
What really caused me to finally just go for it was my sister. Funny how things turn around. A week ago I told her I was going to leave her in the dust if she didn't sign up and so she did. And I didn't (more about my fear later...). She just completed week one and she lost 7.6 pounds! Granted that's how much I want to lose (well 10 lbs.) a month and she lost that much in a week! She did it. And it was hard. But 7.6 pounds!!!! It was worth the hardship.
So here I go. And I am off to one really bad start. I had a cake dounut with coffee for breakfast. I really didn't think about it when I got it, I just ate it right up. And yes it was SOOO good. Worth 6 points?? No way.
With my job I thought the on-line version would be more helpful to me and seeing as my sister goes to all the classes I can use her to answer and questions I might come up on. I've already been pickin' at her head earlier, online just doesn't seem very clear. But I've got some down time at the hotels this weekend to read through it all and see if online really works for me.
I'm kinda scared...What if I don't lose the weight? What if I can't get what I want to look like? Or get to my goal weight? I have a real bad case of the dreaded "WHAT IF'S?". I could get lost in that world.
But...I won't...I need to pull my head up and out of that muck.
I also want to start training to run a half marathon that will be taking place this spring. Early spring in the good old ATL. Being as new as I am about such things I had to google to find out how long a half-marathon even was, 13.1 miles! I don't know if I have ever even ran 1 mile and I want to run 13.1 of them?! I must be crazy or sick. I've hiked more than that so I know I can do it, I just don't have a love for running. And frankly my chest hurts when I run. (blush...The weight gain goes straight for the boobies...) I can only admit that because you don't know me! I want to try and be a runner. My secret goal is also to do a triathon. WHOA. I do love being outdoors and while I am not Miss. Athletic, I'd like to be. I do things now and they are not easy. Hiking is not easy, Wakeboarding is not easy. But if I was fit and healthy it would be easier. And I would get better, faster, stronger!! I have to keep this mind set while I am turning down some good "BAD" food. Aka---JUNK FOOD!
Let's see how the rest of the day goes...