The meaning of the word ASHAMED

a·shamed (ə-shāmd') adj.

1.Feeling shame or guilt:
2.Feeling inferior, inadequate, or embarrassed: .
3.Reluctant through fear of humiliation or shame:

[Middle English, from Old English āsceamod, past participle of āsceamian, to feel shame : ā-, intensive pref. + sceamian, to feel shame.]ashamedly a·sham'ed·ly (ə-shā'mĭd-lē) adj.

I am ashamed.

Ashamed that for some reason I eat junk and think it's okay I'll be good tomorrow. And tomorrow comes and goes and I am still not eating right.

Ashamed that I'd rather sleep then workout. Day after day.

Ashamed that I feel like I have not only let readers down, but my sisters and most importantly myself, over my lack of comitment.

Ashamed that yes this just might be another year of the ugly black swimsuit. And pink boardshorts.

Ashamed that I fell in love with running and have let running down.

Ashamed that I have yet again failed on a diet...even if I called it a life style change.

Running vs. Walking

So the first race on my list has come and gone. And I did not run. Nope. Not me. I don't know why sticking with running is such a hard thing for me. Maybe it will get easier once it warms up! I am also getting to realize that maybe running is not for me. WHAT??? GASP! Let me explain, running is hard for me in the fact that I am overly blessed in the ummm can I say the upper region of my body?! And that hurts, the bouncing. All I need is a really good bra I know, but I hate buying new clothes with losing weight. It seems like a waste of $50 to $65 bucks to me. But then I remember what it did feel like to run and maybe it is for me. Maybe I'm just not a every-weekend-running-in-a-race-wearing-running-tights-type of girl. Not yet anyway. I am trying to be more open with the possibilities that are out there. I still am going to am for running the Disney Marathon and we see about the Nike Women Half-Marathon. I think I might of been trying to get to the finish line the race before it has even really started, because I do love running, well I love where running will take me.
In thinking about this lately I've kept going back to something I've wanted to do for a while now. Walking the Appalachian Trail. I know that this is something I want to do. I'm a little scared about going myself, and I've not done enough backpacking to really know what I am doing by myself. But I am in a time crunch. My Husband will be graduating from college this December, and getting a more permanent job. So we'll be more settled and well...maybe kids? Since it takes a while to walk 2000 miles, you can't really do this and have a little one at home. And you can only hike it at a set time each year to make it from one end to the next. March is ideal for hiking it from the south up to the north which means that I have one year to get ready and make up my mind. Help me! What do you think? I really want to do it... And I do have a year to get ready. It will just take a whole lot of dedication and determination to accomplish this. But it is something I want and think it's something that I need to do. I need to walk 2000 miles. Am I crazy?

Races

Did you see the new side bar of up-coming races? Woo-hoo I am really getting excited now. I just really needed a good kick in the right direction to get going with my running. It's going no where fast. What better way than to pay to run in a race? I think I got a little over zealous the first time though, I was in a race every weekend. Did I mention yet that I have ever to run in ANY race yet? So that's why I made a "POSSIBLE" race list. If I don't get run some of them this year, well there's always next year.
I have something else to admit. I also put up the races to really get me committed to running. I get so busy and it's a weird time weather wise to really begin running (excuses I know) but I would be reading the blogs about this race & that race and I would feel like I was there. It's so real to me that I forget that I haven't really done any races yet myself. So that's what I am doing. I am making the change. Okay so how weird am I now? SO now you know the truth. :)

workout blues

I'm back for another week of pure bliss! I am really getting used to these "mini" vacations. The reason for this one is my true loves B-Day weekend, even though it's not his b-day till the 16th. And no I am not going to tell this week be as bad as the last week off! It's a week off of work, it is not going to be a mini vacation of eating right and working out.
I did pretty good eating wise this week, a few bumps but they were mostly out of being stuck on plane with Mr. Personality him-self and being sleepy...emotional eating is all it was. As far as the working out, well I did two days. I kicked it up to another level on the running program and did some cardio and strength training on my arms. I can tell that I was a slacker, I became slower and sorer (is that a word?) than normal. But it felt good to get back into the swing a little bit, I think I should of taken it a little easier though on the weights. I am not one of those girls that is worried about looking like I stepped off of Muslce Beach. It makes me laugh to even think about it. Well I like lifting weights, it makes me feel strong and you can actually see that yes there is some form of a muscle in those arms and legs. But I really should know what I am doing before I jump into pumping iron! Needless to say I think I over extended my right shoulder a little bit and well I was in pain all day yesterday, (it feels much better today) you now that feeling you get in your arm when you sleep on it funny all night? Like sorta stiff and sore? Well that's what it felt like. Lesson learned.
Okay so I am really excited I am a little more than half way through one of my books: "The Fitness Factor by Lisa Callahan, M.D. ". At first I was disappointed, I could of gotten all this info out of a 3.99 copy of "Shape". But then the real stuff came, and she is wonderful now in my book. I am a real nerd about things and I like knowing what is going on in my body when I workout, eating, etc. I want to know what I am doing to my body, what's going on, what I can do... you get the point right? Well She goes through it all. How to pick a workout, how to progress, what's going on, how... She answers a lot of my questions. This is a wonderful book for people that didn't listen in P.E. or Science Class. Or for someone that whats a personal trainer, yet has a budget for a book, then this is the book. It is really giving me a good starting point. Like okay I know about heart rates and such but I really didn't. Has anyone tried to watch their heart rate without a monitor? Is it hard? Any tips? I really cannot afford one right now, and I understand now how important it is to know your heart rate and how to workout with that in mind. Or does any one know of a cheaper model that is reliable? Yes, I am getting back into the grove and it feels good.
Reading the book really makes me miss school. I love learning, (here's the nerd in me again) I love taking tests, writing papers, actually going to class. Are you ready for some truth? I never finished school. I moved out to Georgia and then got married. And we can't afford for both of us to go right now. And yes I love learning, but I have no real goal in mind of what to go after. I read all the time, even more with this job. All I do know is that whatever I study I want to be able to own my own business. I do not want to "go to work". 9 to 5 is not for me.
All life's questions cannot be answered in one blog. Bummer.

Back to the real life...

It's so hard to get back into the swing of things. I do believe that I have lost whatever psychical strength I did manage to get before I took my "Christmas Break". And truthfully I am scared to get back out there running. Like it's back to square one with me. And I have no one to blame but myself and just maybe Tony Soprano. What hole have I been living under the last couple of years and missed this wonderful show...I'm hooked. God bless the DVD sets. I'm half way through season two. And I am really ready to go to Italy now. Hey maybe it could be for a Marathon, then I won't gain 50 pounds for eating all that pasta, wine, oh and the bread!! Yummyyy. Isn't pasta eating GOOD for you before a Marathon?? (note to self, do not blog before dinner.)
Anyways tomorrow I go back to work and so I really am going to get into the mind set that I was before. I want to come up with a set workout per month and really start the get go on the 5K's. Hopefully I'll get some good choices close to home. Anyone from good old Georgia heard of anything?? Even though I did lose weight in December I did gain it all back and I am at the starting weight of December. So the weight that I did lose I now have to re-lose again. Which stinks. Oh well that's my life.

Has anyone heard of a book called Mindless Eating? My Mother-in-law was given the book for Christmas and she loved it. She wants me to read it, I just haven't heard anything about it. I've got lots of reading to do anyways, I was given some great books. Dean Karnazes--Ultramarathon Man, Fitness for Women, Running for Women, and a book called Women on the Top. (let me explain...it's about the first females that climbed Mt. Everest) Needless to say I will be getting pumped about working out. I just hope that it's not all FLUFF and there is good advice ect, in the books. You just can never tell.

And yet I still do not have a computer and this trip is going to be a LONG & HARD one. With just enough time to workout and go to bed if all the flights are on time. (Crossing my fingers!) So it may be a while before I am able to blog...but knowing that I have to get on and tell you all if I worked out or not I should get my butt in gear!!

Welcome 2007

In my mind I am still on Vacation. Since I had to fly on Christmas Day, and then only had two days off before out I went again, this week is my delayed Christmas break. Which is working out nicely. My husband starts back at school this upcoming Monday, so we've both had all this wonderful time off. And it's been filled with a lot of being lazy! Things we aren't able to do throughout the holiday. We haven't been that lazy, we've been playing golf every day this week. And I will never again ask what is so hard about golf. I am very sore! And it's not from hitting the ball 300 yards, I am not yet at Tiger's level. Key word being yet. :) So yes this is my Christmas gift!! what a wonderful gift! I love it! My love is too good for me.

I am feeling really guilty right now, because of all of you talking about how wonderful it is to be back in the game. And here I am...enjoying...no not even that, just taking a visit down good old Susie lane. What my life was like & how I enjoyed it. Yet it cannot compare with the feeling of being out there with the wind in your hair ( okay I am not that fast yet..) Running just fits...


So as far as 2007........ we'll see what happens. I know I want to run a Marathon... but do I really need 2007 to roll around before it all takes place? 2006 was a darn good year and I have much to be amazed over. Not only was it the year that I found running (okay that is overkill...I still am in the learning to run programme) but I also really learned more about me. Running is just a whole new ball into the Field.

So 2007 bring it on.

keeps going and going....

Well life should be slowing down soon right? I mean the holidays are almost right here at the door and then life will slow down right? Please tell me it will, I am really beginning to feel not the stress just really worn out. I love this time of year, but normally I am not this busy. I just got back from a wonderful week back home in California, which explain to me why we had a snow storm and it was in the 70's in Georgia?? So I got a white Christmas of sorts. Anyways my little baby sister who is 18 just got married. It was a BEAUTIFUL wedding and all, but umm she is so young and for that I do worry about her. I take that back yes she has caused me stress, and lots of it. I also came home with a lovely two pounds. I can thank my Mom's husband and all his yummy Mexican food.
I know it's not much but I am still time crunched and hopefully I'll be able to really be able to right back after the holiday with a new found strength for working out. I'm in a bit of a rut and sleep always wins! Maybe I'll get some really get gifts for running and working out. :) Then I'll wanna work out!!

I've been so bad...

Where oh where have I been??? Yes I am still out a computer plug and I think it's a running theme for all the hotels I stay at to have their computers break down the day I get there! GURRRR... I've kinda been falling off the band wagon and I really do believe it is because I haven't had this blog to keep me accountable. I record all my food online as well and that has also not been doing so well. There is so much I could blame it on though but in the end it is my own laziness. However with every gain I did lose it the following week, my life as been like a see-saw this past couple of weeks---up and down----up and down----. It is time to step off and make another real hard go for it. One final push to end this year off right!

Well let's see if I can make short summary's of what I have been doing while away.
The 22nd of Nov, was our three year wedding anniversary! That was amazing, that I can be so lucky to be with my best friend and the one I truly love for three whole years and am even more in love with him now then I was then.
Then there was Thanksgiving...We spent the holiday with his Moms side of the family and boy can they cook! It's all really good southern cooking, and nothing came out of a box. It was all made by hand...Pies and stuffing...Turkey...Yummy it's making my tummy ready for Christmas breakfast & lunch! It was wonderful to be with his family and have no drama just laughter and food. No football though, that was a little different.
Then came work. And more work. That's really all that I have been doing to make up for the time off I took at the beginning of the month for the golf Championship. So I work and then have one day off then work...It went on like that for quite a while. And I think that's why I ended up getting sick. In which all I could do is work and then sleep as soon as I got to the hotel. Yea I was a HUGE ball of fun. Just the idea of working out made me sleepily and tired. Is it a bad idea to work out then you don't feel well or should you push on and sweat it out of you?
Anyways the latest thing we got to do was go to the SEC Championship Game. I had never been before and one of our friends ended up with two extra tickets game day and so we went. (it got my husband out of a whole day of Christmas shopping so needless to say he was one happy guy) I never knew how LOUD college fans are of their teams. My ears ran for days after that, but it was worth it. Watching football is so much better live, and even though I don't know whats going on most of the time, I can get into it so much more in person.
And so that pretty much leads us up to this point, I am feeling much better and am leaving to go out on a 4 day trip today and I will workout! And eat right. I so badly want to be in the 140's before the new year. Did I tell you my weight? 156.5 pounds. Yea it feels good, but I've been struggling with getting past this for a while, remeber what I said about the see-saw?
I just have to remeber how far I have come and keep on pushing.... I will be in the 140's by the new year.

I need my Computer Fix!!

It's been to long, I need that charger for my computer! I just found out that the warranty was up like a week before this all happened. What are the odds of that?

I have a little confession to make. Yesterday I was running on the treadmill at the hotels gym when I caught the reflection of myself running in the TV screen. Do you know that for the whole workout I was watching myself run? I was, I admit it. It was a reflection of the back side of me as well, I've never seen what I look like running. Some where along the lines of all this I have lost my back fat. It's a smooth line all the way to ummm well my little love handles are still there, but the back fat gone. Wow. I'm one of those people that runs past the mirror, if I didn't have to have one to put on makeup well I wouldn't ever use one. This is all the effect of low self-esteem, which I might add just went up a notch after the run. It justs feels weird to be admitting it...
But as far as the running goes I went on to another week of running, and it is harder but man does it feel good. I still feel like it is slow going and am I ever going to get to a 5k?! I just want to get there and get on to the next goal...

Giving Thanks

Do you know what one of the best things about blogging are? That you can for a few minutes pretend that nothing else is going on. You make friends with people you may never meet face to face, but you know their passion, ie. running, marathoning, hiking, camping, ect. Whatever that passion is you can talk about it blog after blog and people still will come back and read the blogs. If I were to talk this much about running & losing weight in my day to day life, I might not have any friends any more! Okay it's not THAT bad, but a small part is. My friends are not into running, anything really health related. So I get my advice and encouragement from you bloggers out there!! I am not sure what I would do without you all! Even those of you that don't know about me...Yes I am a bit of a lurker. I'm still shy even in the bloggers world. Your stories make me want to try and push myself harder daily to be able to share my own story of triumph.
You all have given me a little view of what being an athlete really is, of the hard work that goes into running a Marathon, even a 5k for that matter! You've made it real, not just something I've read about in a magazine. For that I thank you all. And watch out, one day at one of these marathons I will be out there and I will thank you...at the finish line.

Busy Bee

I know it's been a while. It's been busy, and my computer cord is broken! Again, so I cannot charge my computer till we get a new cord. I feel lost without my computer.
Anyways...

This past week was not one of my better ones. I worked out well up to the weekend and then well, things happened. But I still had a 1.5 pound loss this past week. Which makes it a total of 14 pounds lost. I can't think of once when I have lost 14 pounds before. I am really proud of myself, however I know that it could be better if I would workout seriously. No matter how far I have come, there is still so much farther to go. I am still not out of week two with the running, and it's not because I cannot do it. It's because my mind is still putting up road blocks. When I see a hill, it tells my body that it cannot do it...And I try to fight it back, sometimes it wins other times I win, and up the hill I go. Maybe it will never get easy, maybe it's not ever supposed to be. I don't know if I would like it as much if it was ALWAYS easy. Take today, a beautiful day in DC and I went for a run, after my little warm up it was time to run. I have never seen my legs go like they did before. They wanted to run, they were begging for it and off they went. But by the fourth interval it was up a hill and I just couldn't do it anymore. I had to walk off the rest of the run. Disappointment was HUGE! I was feeling really good out there. It helped that is a beautiful, sunny, cool autumn day. With cute little houses and sidewalks! I wish I could live in a place like this. There where all kinds of moms out running their kids with those running-stroller things. The colors of the trees oh wow! It was just a perfect setting, I never want to run on a treadmill ever again! It was just really disappointing not being able to make a strong run throughout. But I will be back, seeing that this is one of my favorite new places to stay now. And the next run will be stronger. Am I not saying the Right thing to myself to push myself up the hill or what? I can't wait till I look back at this all and I am stronger, and I can run faster and farther. :)

Well I am going to go and see what kinda of gym this hotel has and see about maybe doing some weights. It will make me feel a little better! Have a good day Ya'll and drink up some water!! (I also will try and post later and tell you all about the golf TOUR...)

162.5

I was to upset with myself yesterday to post my weight and the half a pound gain that I had! But I need to be honest and so there it is. Maybe I gained muscle, I guess in order to do that you need to workout even harder than ever, which was not last week. No it simply came down to over eating and not working out. My fault plain and simple. I've just got to try harder this week. So far so good, we'll see how the rest of the week goes. I did find some super old dumb bells in my in-laws storage unit... So I get to use those while I am at home. Really I want to buy new ones but I have to prove to myself that I really will use them before I go and spend hard earned money on them.

I also have a new goal for myself, there is a small talk about my husband and I going on a 4-5 month trip next year! Where you ask? We're thinking about Hiking the Appalachian Trail, next year. Yep that means hiking 2000 miles for the fun of it. From the mountains of Georgia all the way up to Maine. Growing up on the Pacific crest Trail, it's always been something I've wanted to do back home. I never got that chance and little did I ever know that one day I would be living out in Georgia, miles away from the East Coast version of the trail back home (this trail goes from Mexico to Canada). And I love backpacking. It's like running in the sense that you get yourself from point "A" to point "B". But you also don't get to go home and you are carrying a pretty heavy load on your back. I think running will help me develop a better body to withstand everything we would be going through. Could you imagine how great my legs would be after the hike? I could run for days!! And I would love to get away from this crazy world-life that I live and just be with my best friend and husband, in the middle of the woods for months. Just being outside, seeing something not very many people get to see, doing something not very many people get to do.
I can't wait I'll keep you posted.

Happy Halloween!

I am proud to say that the only bit of candy that I have eaten today is a small bag of Whoppers. And I even counted in the points and yes I am giving away candy. :) How great is that? This year however I did buy candy that is not one of my favorites so that I would not be just that much more tempted. :) I don't even have any kids of my own but I feel like I owe it to the people to who's houses I will be talking my kids to one day, to at least give out candy. And I will admit it used to be a really good reason to get tons of my favorite candy in the house without the guilt. It's not for me! It's for the Trick or Treaters! It's the same lie we all tell ourselves every Halloween and Easter. Okay and while I am talking about Halloween I might as well admit that I did carve out my own pumpkins as well. :) Ones really cute with a scared looking face and then the other is really neat looking with a witch and a ghost coming out of the witches pot holding a pumpkin. Yea, I told you it was cool. What can I say? I am just one of those people, a lady told me the other day that I should of been a Kinergarden Teacher. Ummm that I just don't think I could do, and I am not that Holiday crazy I just have tons of sisters (and one brother!) who also have a ton of kids. You can't help how you were raised! Just wait till Christmas ya'll!!!
I am also baking right now...yes I do use that thing called a kitchen every once in a blue moon. :) I made the BEST pumpkin cookies ever. I swear & the best part is they are only worth 1 point! And no they are not diet food, it's just that good for you! Yummy... oh there goes the door bell...
A mom with her kids out trick or treating just asked if I ever wanted a running/walking buddy she's new and would love too. I'm guessing she lives in the neighborhood?

Maybe she saw me out there today? How cool was that though? So I just might have a new friend. Have I said yet in this blog that I love running & not only running but what running brings?

Today was just the most perfect day ever and after I got all my things done that I needed I came home and I went out for a run. And for the first time ever I was not looking at my feet, I was looking at the sky the leaves in their beautiful colors. Yes I do love running, and I wonder if running on the treadmill has helped my balance and so is that why I am not looking at the ground any longer? Ummm And running on the road is much harder still and that makes the decision of slowly going for the half marathon that much of an easier choice. However I do like running outside a million times more than the treadmill. It only puts me about a week behind on the running program, but I think I will be a better runner for it if I do run outside for the rest of the week. :) Just perfect.

Okay ya'll have a GREAT Halloween and do enjoy some candy...just not all of it!

Marathon Runners

I must admit something, I am a lurker. You've caught me! I wanted to read about runners and I have found ton's of blogs. Mostly about running the Chicago Marathon. Hearing about how hard it was but how worth it was in the long run. And then reading about how the recovery was supposed to be no running, but they couldn't stay away. Because after all they had fallen in love with running, and you cannot keep a runner away from the road. I cannot wait till that is me. I want my very own bib number and a medal, do they give medals to all runners? Of feeling so proud that you completed a marathon, you ran yourself from the start to the finish. I write as if I know what it feels like, but really I have no idea. It's only something that I can live through others eyes (or rather their blogs!) right now, at least till I can do it for myself. I'm getting myself there bit by bit. One more run on the second week of training and I think I will be ready to move to the third week. Today was even better on the run than before. I do think I need to step it up a notch in the "brisk" walking parts. I think I am letting my heart rate get to low and then I speed it right back up for the run. I'm going to work on that this next week.
I am also really worried about the fact that I did lose 4 pounds in one week. I mean can I keep this up? I do not want to deal with a gain. Funny shouldn't I be so happy about how much I did lose? And now I am worried about gaining it back. Well I should be honest and tell you why, I have pretty much all of next week off. And if you've been reading you know how bad I am at keeping up this pace at home. It's going to be a real test of strength of just how bad do I want this. I guess I could try and be a homemaker and actually plan and make the food for the week. :) I've got such a loving husband, who loves to cook. Needless to say I will be on blogger quite a bit, to gain strength from all you out there. And as a way to be kept even MORE accountable.

162

Yippie! I cannot believe that I lost 4 pounds! It seems just like yesterday that I was in the 170's and now I am almost out of the 160's! My goal was to be at my 10% goal by next week, which would mean that I would have to lose 5 pounds next week. And how great it was that I did lose 4 this week, I do doubt that I will lose 5 pounds this next week. That would be a bit of a reach, however I will take whatever I get, just not a gain!

I have made a decision about the Half Marathon this spring. I'm not going to go for it. I think I should post-pone it a little while longer. Seeing that winter is coming and I haven't even ran a 5k yet, I think I should slowly work my way towards it. For a couple of reasons, so I don't get burnt out of running, both mentally and physically. And so that I can really work on my time, I want to actually run in the marathon and get a good time. I'm also a little worried about not being able to get enough running in this winter. I know I will sound like a baby, but it is getting cold out here. I still want to do the 5k at Christmas, and who knows maybe I will change my minds yet again as I get more running time in. We'll see.

I was getting really stiff last week and I realized that I was not getting my yoga in like I used too, I've been trying to get more in and I've found a session that is for runners. It really works out all the sore muscles and has really helped me this past week. For all you non-yogi's out there, you should really be giving this a try.

I also want to post a question out there (...this might be a bit much for guys, just warning you!) I am very well blessed in the boobies, I think the whole being over-weight thing has only added them in size. Well I want to be working the muscles under them so that while I lose weight they aren't hanging by my knees. Gross mental picture. Push ups? Pull ups?? What would work the best?

Ready for another week?? Eat well and Drink up!

Head of the Charles

I have a new found love (again) for being fit. As I said in an earlier post I had one of my layovers in Boston this weekend. And it just so happened to be the same day as the "Head of the Charles". http://www.hocr.org/home/default.asp That should be the web sight so you can get an even better idea of what the weekend was all about and of course for pictures, seeing that I didn't have my camera the one time I really wished I would of had it. But anyways, you know what I love about Boston? Besides it being the home of the Boston Marathon of course, well I guess that is a part of it all. I love that there is always people running, and I don't mean "to the store" or "to get a cab", it's because they want to. And they are running with their babies in those cool running baby carries, they are running their dogs. And if they are not running they are riding their bikes. Everywhere. It's like being in Denver. And it was just a beautiful fall weekend. Everyone was bundled up drinking their Soy Lattes, (I swear, one place was giving it away FREE!) And then I saw the rowers...(probably not the right term to call them! hey I'm still new at this!) They had rock hard bodies, solid muscle, but completely toned. In others words they didn't look like they could beat up my 6 foot brother-in-law. And they had to work completely together...it was nice seeing teamwork. But I am still torn with solo sports. Anyways it really inspired me to be the one being cheered on. Having people, tons and tons of people watching, admiring, wishing they could be in your place. I want to feel the rush of comptention with other people, of pushing yourself even when you can't go on. Whatever the sport may be I want to be on the other side of the show, I am not watching from the sidelines anymore. It's not about the weight anymore, it's about getting to the point of being an athletic girl. It really was so BEAUTIFUL...and eye opening for me. Just you wait and see, I'm gonna get there.

11.5.....

What's up with the numbers 11.5 you ask? Well... that's how many points I went over today. Yes in one day alone. And really I know why I pigged out, you see my husband left to go out of town for the weekend. I hate being alone. Weird isn't it? My job is all about being alone really, and when I am out on a trip, yes I miss him but it's work. It's what I do. But at home this is where we are supposed to be. It's made me know what it feels like to "walk in his shoes for a mile". I don't know how he does it. Me leaving all the time. He is the most amazing man ever.

All I can do is work hard tomorrow and really watch what I eat for the rest of the week. That I can do, I didn't even workout today! I really needed a day off. SO I will start back up tomorrow. I'm actually looking forward to it. Me looking forward to running. Stranger things have happened. I have yet something else to work toward now, we've decided to take a week off this March and go to St. Simon Island for a week. It's off the coast of Georgia and although it's not "tropical" island it is a wonderful place. We spent a weekend there last spring and I still remember wishing I was a runner, to run the beaches in the morning. It's something I've always wanted to do but seeing I was never a runner, and I was embarrassed to just go and run. Like it was something I might do wrong. Not this spring. I will run the streets and the beach in St. Simon. Change feels good. Just even the little bit of running I am doing has changed so much, I am looking forward to seeing how it's going to effect my life this next year. I read that when you start to change the way you eat and the way you live your life it may only take you 6 months to lose the weight but to really change the way you live it takes a year. One year to go through all the changes, birthdays, holidays, weddings, summer time, winter blues....All of it. If you can make it though the year well your just that much closer to it being normal life. It's only been 1 month and I think I did really well. And I have to make it though the hardest Holidays first... Thanksgiving & Christmas. My wish is to make it though the season and to still be losing weight. However I will be perfectly happy with myself if I don't gain anything. But I do want to lose so that will still be the goal. And I have accountability this time. I'm not worried, bring it on!

No Vegas for me! The whole weather thing in Atlanta really messed things up and yes they recrewed us! We got to go to New York instead, and that meant the hotel with the Sauna!!! Even if it means getting 6 hours of sleep. My whole body hurts after lugging the suitcase around. It's been bad. I would like to say that it has made me think more about what I pack, but not really. :) A girls gotta have her stuff!
I woke up this morning feeling very skinny. Let me rephase that...I woke up this morning feeling thinner. :) Just a little bit, like maybe all this hard work is paying off? Funny how now that I am doing more running and hard cardio workouts and less yoga I can really tell the effect it had on my body. It's much tighter and sore after the day of the workouts. I need to make it a point to add yoga every day again.
Time is creepin' up on me, gotta go.

Wheels, you've gotta have them!

So I forgot to tell you that my wheels on my suitcase fell off! That means I get to lug around my lunch box, my flight bag and my suitcase (which weighs a ton! This laptop is really more for watching DVD's rather than lugging it around the world.). All day today, with two plane swaps and to the hotel, and then again tomorrow with a plane swap and to the parking lot. It should be fun and I should have a good arm and back workout by the time this is all over! What did people do before wheeled suitcases where around???

Vegas...yes again... :-P

I've got to get all my internet duties done today, seeing that I am headed to Vegas AGAIN! And Vegas is known for a lot of things but having a great connection is not one of them, it takes like 1 hour to just up load a page. That's real high speed folks! I guess they don't really think that you are going to be in the room much, they want you out gambling! Well I am only going to be there for 11 hours. And that's if we get out on time...There's weather in Atlanta, and if you've ever had to fly through that airport you know what it means...DELAYS. I do hope that we get reassigned, on this turn. Anyways...
I was supposed to do my second week of training for the run, but that means that I would of had to run in Vegas. Second thing that Vegas is not known for...Hey maybe it's just my hotel (no gym). So I just switched the days and I ran today. It felt GREAT, I think I am getting really hooked on this thing called running. I am kind of nervous about the fact that I might be running miles and miles one day, and then working out hard! Woo-hoo!! I am not seeing much of a change in my body butt it is getting easier, I am not as out of breathe as soon as I was before. I am feeling good though, I'm not as tried at the end of the day. And I am actually looking forward to the workouts. Even weirder. I am loving it...