Priceless?

I guess more people do bathing suit shopping months ago. I was still hopping for a radical weight loss, in the crazy chance that I would of actually stuck with the plan. Oh well, Life Happens. The dear hubbie of mine and I are going to Destin Fl, for the 4th of July fun-n-sun weekend getaway with two other couples. (i know, i know, they are people! great step forward for me) I just couldn't go to the beach in my old black "swimmers swim suit". And so I shopped and shopped and shopped.

Let's break it down...



Swimsuit $69.00
Capri's to go with swimsuit $14.95
Flip-Flops to wear at the beach with Capri's $6.95
Pretty New Dress to go out to dinner in $27.99
Earrings to go with new dress $6.95
Necklace that goes with earrings $6.95

And for kicks, Work Shoes $14.99

Total with Tax: Priceless?? What are you paying for me?
$158.13
It was a day just like my favorite Master Card Add. You know the one where the girls gets her toes done and then the shoes and then the dress and of course ends up at Tiffany's. I think mine was more of a need to feel better after trying on swimsuits. I have not spent that much money at one time in a VERY long time. That's a Kate Spade bag I could of bought! And then I have to tell the dear hubbie. So far he knows about the work shoes and the swimsuit. UGH. I guess I will find out if I returned any of these things or not.
I can't help but think... WHAT WOULD DAVE RAMSEY THINK?
But the good news is that I was power shopping walking as fast as I could and the mall was about 2 miles away, as if that wasn't enough I also didn't eat a single thing at the food court. And I wasn't swayed by the good smells of Auntie Annes...ahhhh. Way to many points for me thank you!

People?? where??? RUN for your life!!!!!

Why lately am I developing this fear of people? Not so much a fear but I would rather be ANY where but there with people. I would rather be at home watching a movie even doing laundry over hanging out. And I was not like that before, it would always make me a little nervous to meet new people but I would be able to hide that and come off really confident and interact with others well. But lately I've been really freaking out when my husband wants to go out and hang out with friends. May I say I've been a royal bitch to him most of the time? I always end up saying sorry the next day because I feel bad, I over reacted and then I need to apologize for the way I acted. Mostly to him. And It's not like I don't at least know two of the people of the group that's always there. So it's not like he is asking me to hang out with strangers all the time. And it really hurts him, and it's not me. It's not who I am, I get grumpy about it and just sit there. I don't try to talk to others it's like I get a chip on my shoulder of who I am, and I don't have anything in common with this people. Not that I am better than them, it's just they are not someone I would be best friends with so I don't really bother to talk at all. And I don't get out there and do things either, at the latest party there was horse shoes and I didn't play but once and yes I was pouting the whole time. When it should of been silly and fun. And normally I would of laughed and had a ball. At this time I was drinking too, so that should of loosened the belt a little right? It's as if I lost my confidence of being around people. Not good, whatever happened to just live life and laugh and have a good time? And truthfully it's been happening more around T.O.M. which is unusual because again that is not like me. Maybe I am having a little bit of unbalanced hormones?
At least I feel better talking about it...with whoever wants to read about it. Which is funny when you think about everything I just wrote. But face to face is much different trust me.
I'm trying to get back into the real swing of things, with eating and such. I was doing well, but the weekends are always the worst. But hopefully there will be a change on the scale this week. I am really trying to get into better shape for my birthday in August, I am turning 26 and that means only 4 years left till I am 30. And I still have yet to be in the best shape of my life. I've also read that your metabolism slows down starting at 25 and gets slower year by year. I need to make this change for good now. Before it gets just that much harder to do. :)

I love the River!

If you've been by my blog in the past two weeks or so you would see that I added a new tool on my page by Traineo. And you would've also seen that the weight loss had not changed one little bit. Well I have lost 5 pounds. :) And it feels good. I was really worried seeing how I was on Vacation and all but it was an active week. We went Kayaking three times for about 2 1/2 hours each day. And then we did a lot of swimming and honestly a lot of just being lazy! With all that stuff we were doing I didn't have much time for munching on the junk food and plain over eating. Let's just keep planing on that little trick to keep on going.

But really I know I keep talking about how much I love Kayaking and get ready cause I just have to talk about how much I love it again. It's even better the more you go, it gets to be more challenging and I learned that there is a difference in "kayaking" and "paddling". Anyone can float down a river, if you can paddle you do what you want with the water. And that is my goal. To not just go with the flow but to make it work for me, to play in the surf, to roll under the water... To be better than I can be.

Yes I am going to run today...I'll let you know how it went. I've got lots of un-packing and cleaning to do before I fly out again. :)

another day bites the dust

I should learn to take my own advice one day. I was set on restarting everything today. And well sleep and the tonics from the night before. (so I am still drinking...) But as I got ready for the day I weighed in, and yes a gain that really freaked me out. And I thought oh it's just this silly old scale. Then I put on my shorts, nope it's not a lie. I can tell in how my clothes fit, I did gain.

Back to the beginning, in the only way I lost weight. Good Old Weight Watchers. This week is Vacation for me and the Hubie, but we will be spending it at the lake with lots of Kayaking in the view... but still... Gosh it is just so hard sometimes.

Any and all tips are welcome.

I am thinking I need to really join a race, as in pay for it and mark it on my list. Maybe then I will get going if there is a "real" goal at the end of it all. I'm still hoping for the Disney Half this Jan. We shall see...is it still open for new people?

Garden Partys

It just so happens that tomorrow is Monday, other wise I would not comment to working out for the dreaded, I'll start on Monday thing. but really, I had an amazing weekend we went to a true Garden Party. A page out of In Styles Party page. Amazing. And we had such a great time. It was cool to step into the other world for a night.
But in the end I just wanna be me, I wanna run a half-marathon and Kayak down this river and really just enough life as much as I can. And of course there's a need to lose weight, since when is a female ever okay with how her body looks? Or how fast it works in regards to how I need it to perform. Endurance is the one of the keys for me at this point. :)
So I am going to get up run, drink my coffee eat my breakfast and have an amazing start of a day. I know that I can do a half and a full Marathon one day. It's all in how hard I try to get myself there. Just how bad do I want this?


P.S. Does anyone have a hard time getting along with a sister-in-law? Any advice???